Right now, i feel like shouting..there are things i need to get out of my lungs before it become numb again. I need someone/something to talk to. but i know it, if i let it permanently stay at somewhere. im not going back to that place again.ever. Now things are too precious for me to reject. but they are getting more and more out of control. too far fetched. How can i deal with it?

Here is a surprise..i talk santono into buying a book for me! wahaha.. thank God for that. Sometimes i wan to buy the book even if others already have it.I thought of add it to my collection. Though i dun have a big collection, next time i may have =)
Feeling good when im distracted by myself =)

[Sky Sailing - Captain of the Sky
Flutter all through the night
And we can blow the clouds around
This paper hanger skyline
Summer smile again
And you can disappear
But I'd rather be here]
His music and voice just soothe out everything.